my dreams, never quite as it seems

It's been a while since I've sat at the keyboard and just taken the time to write - write anything.
The last 4 years have been a roller-coaster, but this is my life. I think the entirety of my life has been one huge long lasting roller-coaster.
I have recently dubbed myself the Unlovable Girl - its a superpower to be this unloved and overlooked; I swear it is. The sadder part, I try, I really really try with people. I try to be helpful, kind, caring, sensitive and yet it's either completely ignored, blown off, or seen as insincere.
This all just seems like whining. This is my free write to just get back in the habit. I feel like I should write a story. My muse has been making the rounds again but I am not sure where to start.

I had this random dream the other night. I was in a boat on the lake. The sun was shining, the water was smooth as lake water is. There were beautiful big puffy clouds in the sky. For whatever reason, we were the only two people on the boat. The rest of our families had decided to stay on shore at the house while we took the boat for a ride. He was attempting to talk me into jumping into the water. I was watching the water and seriously contemplating the jump from the boat. I reached my toes into the water to feel the temp and something in my gut told me to get back as far as possible. He had come up behind me and was about to push me in when I turned on my heel and grabbed him close to me so he couldn't push me. He felt the shiver down my back and pulled back looking in my eyes to ask "What's wrong?" I tried to steady my voice as I looked up at him "I don't know, but something isn't right. We really need to get back to the house. I don't think we are safe out here on the boat."
It was just at this moment, its face broke the water. I screamed and pulled my face into his chest. He turned just in time to see the jaws open wide. Before we both could comprehend what was happening, the alligator was on the boat, mouth open, lunging toward us.
He pushed me toward the front of the boat and the controls. What should have been a fun, relaxing day spent in the sun and quickly turned dark and frightening.