Monday, August 29, 2011

Friends! "in a different time"

Lex and I left the house yesterday evening to go hang out with our two favorite beautiful women. We have been doing this a lot lately. While we were there and the night was winding down, I sent a text to an old friend who I was lucky enough to get back in touch with after many years. He recently moved into the next town over which made it easier to see each other and help each other out. This friend had a rough day and was going through a hard time so I wanted to check in and make sure he didn't need me. Good thing I did, because I really think he did need me there.
We left our sleepy lady friends around 11 pm and travel north to see this close friend. This is a friend who was family to me before I had my current family. We have known each other since we were 6. After 25 years of friendship it is just like picking up where we dropped off 11 years ago the last time we hung out.
He's a great guy with a heart of gold. Unfortuantely he often too quick to try to give that golden mass in his chest away to the first available woman he feels a connection to, and thus ends up in heartbreak and misery. Last night was unfortuantely not much of an exception to this rule. He had been drinking all day to deal with his pain & misery. A certain self destruct mechanism surrounds him when he gets like that and too often he just needs to be close to another human being, to talk, to reminisce, to be reminded of what an awesome person he is trully. We sat around and did just that, talked of old times, talked of current times, talked of what went wrong, what we did right, where we wanted to go, where we once thought we were, fears, hopes, dreams, emotions, relationships, we seemed to cover most of it all.
Finally at 4:30 in the morning, having a weeks worth of sleep deprivation finally catch up to me, I bid my friend, my brother, fairwell, and I left to head home. I was happy to have been there during a time when he was in need, a time when he was vulnerable, and give him a shoulder to lean on and an ear to listen. I hope that I am there again if I am ever needed in the future.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

just here (November 9 2005)


just here

Current mood:busy
Another day....what to say...it's amazing how different men and women are from each other and the thoughts we have about certain situations. It's a long complicated situation of which I don't feel like elaborating on at the moment, but just the way things are preceived.
Women have a tendancy to blow off certain situations that men can't seem to get around, and yet the important issues we have trouble dealing with they can't seem to grasp why it would bother us. It never ceases to amaze me.
Have I written lately about the wonderful man I have been blessed to have in my life. Ok, I must admit that there is more than one wonderful man blessing my life, but two are of my own flesh and blood.
Ok, new subject...nothing like skipping around from subject to subject is there.....true friends are the best and other than one or two, it's been awhile since i've been blessed to have many friends be a part of my life.....
I love my girls, my friends, my confidants, and there are a few men thrown in that mix too, so I guess I shouldn't be too biased, but for the most part anymore it's females that reign supreme in my little friendship circle.....
But as much as I love them and would bend over backwards to be there for them especially when they need me, I don't understand sometimes why they put up with the situations they do sometimes.....and hun, if you are reading this, you know who you are....
Friends are the best. True friends that is. And in this part of the world they are hard to come by.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

8 months

Lex turned eight months old yesterday. Kinda came and went with no big to do. I had honestly forgot until a little after 8 that evening. We spent most of the day shopping and just relaxing. I slept most of the day and so did Lex. A wonderful way to enjoy a Sunday I suppose. I had full intentions of getting up and going to church, but I was so exhuasted. Lex has somehow managed to sleep for 4 hour stretches last night and the night before. A wonderful warm welcome to every hour and half or two hours, but someone when I wake up after the four hour stretch I am in such a state of restful sleep that I can't seem to wake up. We slept until a little after 8, but when Lex went back down to sleep around 10:30 so did I and we slept until close to noon. After we woke up, we hit some school supply shopping at Staples and Walgreens and grocery shopping at Kroger. When we arrived home it was time to make dinner and start the ususal evening routine. It was during this routine that it dawned on me that my sweet little boy had turned 8 months old that day. How time flies when you are loving your life!! How much Lex has grown during that time and how much things have changed! Lex started pulling up today. My little guy is trying his hardest to stand so he can start walking. He still won't crawl like "normal" babies, but he can sure book it doing the "army" crawl. It amazes me to see what new things he learns each and every day, how he plays and explores the world around him. I missed a lot of this time with Aaron and Garrett. I was able to be home with them more than a working mother but not as much as I am with Lex. I absolutely love my time home with my sweet boy. I have also loved my time with my older boys as well.
Unfortunately, Aaron is now at his father's full time. I miss him tons. I have been very busy with Lex and Garrett. Garrett is in football this fall and has practice 3 days a week and the other day, I have scouts. It's a busy schedule. My days are filling up fast. School starts next week and I must say that as much as I have loved my summer home with the boys and love being with them, I am really looking forward to the routine of the school year. I am ready to get back into my "jobs" and booking some new Thirty-One shows, as well as starting a new weekly routine with Lex.