Dark Waters ~ Feb 2 2009

Dark Waters

Current mood:gloomy

The water was black and cold and crushed in on every side of her. She came up and gasped, the cold night air stinging her lungs. And then she went back under. She kept trying to tread water but the harder she tried the more tired she became and couldn't seem to keep herself afloat. Her lungs were hurting and she kept drinking more of the cold dark water than she was breathing cold fresh air. What happened when the water over took her? What would happen to her?

As she grew colder and more tired her mind started to flash back to so many different places and times. To when she was child and spent summers with her dad. The pictures flashed before her like a slide show of her life. Times spent at the beach while her dad buried her in the sand and then next while he took his turn in the sand. She saw images of riding the roller coasters at their favorite amusement park, and her begging to be let off. She saw the images from when she first learned to drive in the big open field behind her uncles house.

Later she saw the images from her first love, the bear he bought her for valentines day when they were only 14, the roses he brought to school for her and the ever romantic candle light steak dinner he cooked for her, and then the images of them dancing in his mothers kitchen to some sappy country song on the radio while the candles still burned.

Next flashed the pictures of parties she had attended. A constant show of friends that she had run around with. Then came images from first days of school in high school. There were pictures from graduation, prom. It was all there, just one long continuing movie.

She came back up and was able to break surface again. Gulping in fresh air and another mouthful of water at the same time. The air burned and refreshed at the same time. She thought this time when she had come out of the water she had seen lights but she couldn't be certain. Again she came back up but the water quickly drug her back under but not before she was able to spit out the mouthful of water and drag in one more big breath.

The pictures seemed to blur together now as the flashed past. Suddenly there were pictures of the next love of her life. Dark nights out riding back roads. Trips to the liquor store. Scenes of peeing on a dark country road and hitting deer at 2 am. There were scenes of the look in his eyes as he told her he thought his destiny lied with her. Pictures flashed by of snowball fights in the backyard, nights sitting on the hood of his pickup watching the stars in 20 degree weather, and then a flash of a wonderful night spent sitting by the lake watching fireworks.

The images raced by. She then saw images of her life without him. Life in a new town with new friends. She watched the images from her graduation. Images from her wedding. Images of new homes, and new places.

She came up again, but this time not on her own. By this time she had given up. Her life was over she was sure. But then someone had their arms around her and was pulling her up out of the water. When she surfaced, she started choking and coughing, the lights were blinding in the dark night. The cold was unbearable, like a thousand tiny daggers against her skin. She was not sure who had her or even where she was. All she knew was that the slide show had stopped. The pictures that were moments ago so fresh in her mind were now fading quickly. She shivered violently. The cold was to the bone, and it hurt in places that couldn't be described. All of a sudden a warm blanket found it's way around her and on the surface she started to warm. But now the fight that she had put up in the water was starting to take it's toll on her. And she quietly allowed her eyes to close, but as they did and she started to allow herself to succumb to the sleep that wanted to take over, she swore that man from the hood of the pickup truck had leaned over to kiss her lips lightly and whisper in her ear that he was there, forever now, and would never let her slip again.

9:26 PM