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Today is December 4th. That means thankfully there are only 27 more days in this awful year. 2011 has been a rough year. There has been very little good and a lot of hard times and bad things happen. I only hope that 2012 will bring gladder tidings. How can so many hard times and bad things happen to one family/individual? I guess I should be happy (and I am) that my family seems to have it's health. That is the only positive I can think of right now. We are not even all together as my oldest son has left me to go live with his father. Other positive of 2011 was being able to go visit my father. I was able to stay home with Lexington for the majority of his first year, so I was able to experience many of his first milestones which was another "good" for 2011.I tried being positive and thankful for the month of November and I do have many things in my life to be thankful for yet there has just been so much stress and hardships for our family this year, it's a wonder we have all made it through. Some how, some way, 2012 has to be a better year than the one we are currently in. My positives to look forward to in 2012, the possibility of moving closer to family. Hopes and prayers that Aaron will move home at the end of the school year in 2012. That putting Garrett in a sleep clinic will help shed some light on some of his "problems". Being less than 6 months away from having my masters by the end of 2012. Hopefully getting to travel to experience the Polar Express,as well as Disney(Land or World - I am not picky), and family too! I do have paper I should be working on for my final in my first class for my master program. I have to do a press release and a 2 page memo, but I can't bring myself to work on it. Lexington turns 1 on Wednesday and I have a house that I have to get cleaned, and yet I can't bring myself to do that too. It has been so long since I have written and I felt a need to write and now I feel a need to head to bed. I hope tomorrow to get my paper finished (as it is due by midnight) as well as make enough progress in my "office" to get my Christmas tree and decorations up. I still have several decorations I need to "create" before Saturday for Lexington's party as well as start on making food and looking up recipes. It's going to be another fun filled busy week. Wish me lots of luck!!